the 2nd tutorial.

I went to the tutorial quite early this week because I was a bit late last week (that's because my tutor watch is faster than mine but mine is exact). I was trying not to repeat the same mistake but the world did not agree with me that morning...

Things happen when we least expect them.
There was a tutorial held in our classroom and my tutorial mates, the tutor and I entered the classroom , TOGETHER after 9 o'clock (the tutorial is scheduled at 9a.m). So, my effort of going to class early that morning was meaningless. It's not that we will get something if we turned up early, but I just felt what I did was pointless. Naaaah..., doesn't matter!

I sat next to Annabelle but then my tutor asked to get into group based on the number given to us. I got into group with Hermione or Annysse and a guy whom I thought was like me, a non-native speaker of English. My jaw dropped when I heard he spoke!he.he.. Luckily, I had a little chat with Annysse before we entered the classroom (I guess there's the silver lining of going to class early that day). She's nice and completely the opposite of what I had thought of her.

Then, we were asked to read some articles; my group got to read about realist opinion on international law. I was terrified because we had to discuss the article and aswered a few question later on. It was a 'classic' text and I couldn't really get it. Fortunately, it wasn't just me who had the problem, a girl who sat next to me couldn't understand it either. Mind you, she's Pakeha. In that class, I was the only one who is not a native speaker of English. Nobody else understand Bahasa Melayu than me!!!!!huhuhu.....very challenging indeed. This is because I'm not confident with my fluency and when I'm scared, I'll think too much and I can't talk!!!!!!in English of course...


I couldn't answer any questions that were based on the article. But I was able to share some thoughts when the questions asked about our personal opinion on international law. Huh!
But there's one thing that I regretted; I shouldn't object what Lauren said. Everybody was just giving their opinion and we were not looking for the best answer..hmm.......


The interesting that happened in this week tutorial was when I found out how native speakers of English having problem in explaining what they have read, just like me! It never occured to me that language was not the only barrier in learning, in this academic setting of course. In a way, this has helped me not to think less of my ability but I always need to work on my fluency because at the end of the day I'll be an English teacher.

"Look at problems as chance not obstacle"
-Mr. Fletcher-

till then...